Better to have loved and to have lost....

Well for those of you who read my previous post titled "damned if I do damned if I don't" remember the girl I was talking about. Just want to say that she isn't actually as bad as I said, she does tend to do that sometimes, but I also wrote it when I was annoyed. Anyways, turns out after thinking on it for a while I broke up with her. A mix of treating me unfairly and her not being ready for a relationship drove me off. She didn't like herself at all and that made it hard for her to care for someone else. I tend to be fiercly independant and that trait of mine along with her personality didn't mesh well at all. I ended up feeling as if she attempted to manipulate me and control me, even if it wasn't what she was doing, it's how it felt and I don't stand for things like that. I am who I am and the only person who will change that is myself. She had good traits ofcourse, as anyone does, but they were unfortunatly blotted out by her self-hatred which led to constant depression. I want her to be happy, but it isn't something in my control, it's only something she can change. Even then she has to want to and that means getting insurance, seeing doctors for possible medication and maybe a counselor. She may have a fear or hatred of doctors, but such things are going to have to be overcome by a want to be happy and until she wants it bad enough then it won't override that fear or hate and she will be stranded where she is. I honestly hope she gets better and she can find happieness, I still love and care about her, but as much as I want to be I cannot be her savior.